It's much nicer talking to people who talk to me as if we're seeing each other later. I've noticed the "gloves off" feel online amped up lately by individuals who intend to never lay eyes on me. Giving casual remarks upon rediscovery of fresh accounts where they are no longer blocked saying "Oh I thought it was me". It was. But I'm kind and keep letting you back, like the mold on my bread. It's weird that people think they should be rude in a forum where they never intend to meet. We're meeting. Now. Right now, here and online. You're meeting a fraction of a soul when you read my words. I'm reading a fraction of yours when I read yours. I'm in my actual world and you're in yours, yet we get to for a brief flash experience the joy that is each other. The thing is, it's not always necessary to change the subject. I talk to a zillion people daily who can't stay on topic. I've been whittling that down because I, personally have a driving need to BE focused. Focus with You means that You can hear what I said. Acknowledging I said whats I said. Displaying comprehension, if not agreement then disagreement is agreeable too. But dismissive, narcissistic advances of "Oh yeah, look over here, this is better than what you're talking about" is nauseating. You don't actually hear me. You're listening to talk. Not listening to hear. I'm at a critical phase in my healing growth cycle that I need quantifiable support from a system that can actually hear my voice, see my vision and acknowledge even for a brief second you HEARD ME. I get this at home. But socially, no. You are not listening to hear me and you can't understand what I'm saying. "I need quantifiable support from a system that can actually hear my voice" Take heart. I'm listening to you. I'm no longer getting angry you can't hear me. Clearly this isn't your fault. You just cannot be so overly surprised that I stopped telling you stuff, or stopped talking to people who aren't in this house at all. Sticking mostly to what gets the message out to listeners eager to hear on channels where listening is the rule of the day. I will still hear you. I will still listen. Minus anger and judgement and all the other garbage that came with the previous episode. We are in the next episode. We are. Some of y'all still watching last year's channel and hoping that the program will update back to what made you comfortable in the first place. I'm not here to make you comfortable or even be friends with you. If you can pull your head out of your own ass long enough to breathe actual air instead of just the thin air in your own backyard, you might realize someone is trying to tell you something. Most of it is wrapped in love, if you could only hear, listen and attempt to understand. |
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