"We battle nobody, but ourselves"These truths would take time for me not just to hear. But also to absorb. Comprehension for me is not automatic. I'm on a delay. It takes me a day, two, three sometimes to comprehend the fullness of truths at times. It can be difficult for me to understand that the angst someone has when they are interacting with me is their own. I do not stimulate or engage in angsty behaviors that would cause others to wobble off their good humor. That's simply not my vibe. My overall personal demeanor is happy with a tinge of occasional sadness that I'm miraculously at times able to whisk away! I love that my training taught me to clear unwanted and uninvited energies. I enjoy that my training and taken me within myself the ability to reground, regroup and find my inner qi and reset my harmonies so I can feel harmonious with the world at large. I am grateful for these gifts. I've also become aware that others can wish to exploit giftings such as mine and it's often important not to reveal my capabilities to nefarious folks who might not have mine or our best interests in mind. So it took me awhile to see and to learn that when these people came and waged war with me, they were at war with themselves prior to entering our peaceful and sacred spaces. War is disinvited to the party. War is disinvited to my rooms. War is disinvited. Period. I am not interested in the wars that they are waging on themselves in my home. I don't mind studying, applying methods of care and becoming certified, licensed and available for appointments will I willingly wage battle once more. For now, their wars cease and I extend Peace alone. Peace Alone. I have found Peace alone. Sure there are difficult days when thoughtless and vicarious individuals behave on their own without the forethought or benefit of their neighbors and communities. They are in the vast minority. The assholes, the pricks, the agenda hunters, the scammers and the leeches. You know the ones. Always got an angle, everything is a transaction and by the end of it they will be probably be screaming their heads off in fury at you for not serving them perfectly as their whole ego demands. It's the ego that's the become the rapacious monster in the room. Always sucking up all the oxygen, talking so much that the ability to hear, listen and learn is never a mode of operation. It's always overpowering. Always. I have Peace when I am alone. We have witnessed first hand what the Dunning Kruger effect is like first hand. It's amazingly impossibly difficult to have reasonable and rational conversations that result in cohesive relationships where everyone feels heard, supported and validated. When the Dunning Kruger effect is in operation, there can be little to shift the playing field to one of fairness and often the warlike personas dominate and take over. Escalation is the word of the day and they are always escalating. Or they are building fresh cases to wave like new red flags daily. It can be exhausting to keep up. And like the cherry on top the final act is the gaslighting. How, everything that happened before is forgotten and not remembered. How often have I heard in my lifetime "that wasn't what happened" when someone was trying to explain away my experience with them. As if I just suddenly woke up with incorrect memories and they needed to fix them. It never worked. I always maintained my memories until I need to resolve them for Peace sake. That's the path I've chosen constantly. The one of Peace. Peace was never not an option. Peace was the ONLY option I was going to accept going forward. We Are Pacifists. There is no war here, so don't bring me more. I don't want it. Keep your war. Stop warring with others. Stop warring. It's so beneath you to do this to people and behave in this way. You're not in some cave. Unless you are. Then, we should talk about your housing options. There are always options. War doesn't have to be one of them.
Eat. Cake.
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