I’m fighting a monster I’m determined that you’ll never see. One of the worst compliments I can get is when someone who knew my Mom tells me how much I resemble her. While I am in agreement that the Universe is inherently lazy and reuses faces generationally, no I do not look like my mother. Not even a little bit. Let me explain. My mother for all her bad traits was a good person. My Mother for all her toxic habits, meant well. My mother simply lacked the tools, training and skill set in addition to a supportive nurturing environment to display love properly towards me. This is simply a fact of my existence on this planet. I don’t fuss or spend too much mirror time. The resemblance between my face right now and hers is breathtaking and startling. It’s like we’re some sort of evil twin matched set. The Good Angel and The Bad Angel but you can’t tell who’s who because we have the same face!! The same face. I was issued her face on this mission. I would wear my tormentor’s face throughout this escapade. I’m grateful that Post Malone is so well received for I see facial tattoos in my future so folks can no longer be confused. She was cruel, I am kind. She hated her kids, I loved mine. She withheld food for her kids, I probably gave too much. She didn’t run and play with us at all… it’s all we did, was run and play. Where she laid down, I got up. Where she shouted, I whispered. Where she scowled and disapproved I smiled and laughed. So, no, don’t tell me how much I resemble my mother. I don’t resemble her at all. Not in lifestyle, not in family, not in character and certainly not in love. So if your superficial self only sees a copy of her, keep it moving fam, this show’s not for you. Peace.
I’m hoping to find Peace with my face. My face isn’t her face. It’s my face. I carry the Face of Peace. She carried the Face of Terror. We are not the same she and I. Merely reflections on painted glass and nothing more. Her life was a fantastic illusion and delusion. My life is vibrant and contains no guile. No guile is how we all should endeavor to live.
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